in the months before we cracked wide open, when we thought codependency was love

I used to trust you.

I would have bet my life

that you would never

betray, deceive, not see.

but two years of unraveling later

I sit in front of a therapist and try

unsuccessfully

to process through my own becoming.

it's unsuccessful

because we never quite get to me.

it's always

all about you.

(the uncomfortable truth, 

of course,

is that I chose this.)

-Britta Hamilton

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