in the months before we cracked wide open, when we thought codependency was love

I used to trust you.

I would have bet my life

that you would never

betray, deceive, not see.

but two years of unraveling later

I sit in front of a therapist and try


to process through my own becoming.

it's unsuccessful

because we never quite get to me.

it's always

all about you.

(the uncomfortable truth, 

of course,

is that I chose this.)

-Britta Hamilton

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